Landfill work is the only thing that  I have ever loved from the beginning that hasn't broke my heart

It takes 10,000 times longer to put yourself back together than it does to fall apart in the first place

Ghosts...

A ghost can take the shape of many things... A girl, a memory, a moment in time and the damndest thing about them is that just when you think they are gone.. They figure out someway to creep back into your dreams and thoughts.. And after it or they scare the crap out you and you try real hard to stuff them back into whatever box you have them in.. You do what you always do...  Put your head down.. work or work out till your body goes numb and then drown the bastards in bourbon whiskey till your head goes numb and they disappear.

The Green Cup

 At 25 I sat on my porch in a small town , listened to music and drank 100 proof and Sprite out of a big green cup.  And the damndest thing is happening at 35.. Here I sit on my porch in a big city, listening to music and drinking 100 proof and Sprite out of a big green cup.. The more things change the more they stay the same.

Damn You George Strait

because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. no matter what else has changed in you or the world, that one song stays the same, just like that moment.

In Another Life

In another life I will be more confident and not so damn hard on myself

In another life I will not be so cold towards the end.. Funny how I was so emotional when I was young and now at 35 I just seem to not care at all.

In another life I will have put other people first, started a family, raised some kids and had a big group of friends like the people I looked up to did.

So much I want to say

 So much I want to say..... But I keep it inside me because I don't want someone to find it and think its a cry for help... Just bunches of things that I want\ need to get off my mind